Today I cried to God

Photo Credit: Aubrey Stout

It's funny how much emotion happens in this chair. This dingy, cheap, in desperate need of a make-over office chair I bought at Walmart or Kmart for twenty bucks. Its worn edges, and creaky sounds have made room for some pretty powerful thoughts and feelings to protrude from my body. It holds me up when I sometimes can't muster up the energy to do it myself and over time it has proven itself to be reliable and trustworthy.

And today it was the perfect butt-drop, er, back drop, to the tears I cried to God. {Yes, I laugh at my own jokes}.

Tears of sadness and tears of joy.

I sat in this chair and turned my attention to God and just talked to Him like he was sitting next to me sipping on His coffee. I told him about my dreams, my fears, the people I love, and as I began praying everything that had been sitting on my chest, and plopped up by this creaky old chair, was handed over to Him. They weren't my burdens to carry on my own. And my joys weren't celebrated alone. All of a sudden tears ran down my face, and I remember feeling thankful for ALL. THAT. I. HAVE.

For all that He has entrusted to me.

-a loving, supportive, husband
-healthy children
-a house
-a car {two cars and a boat, and a riding lawnmower}
-a stocked pantry {I don't actually have a pantry, but it sounds better than stocked cabinets!}
-multiple pairs of shoes
-hot water
-um, water!
-a creaky office chair
-love for music
- a computer to type my thoughts on
-coffee
-friendship
-the clutter everywhere I look that drives me nuts
-books
-chirping birds
-and countless other people, places and things

I sat down to pour myself out to God, my Heavenly Father, but instead He poured out of me. My heart couldn't contain it any longer and I sat crying. He was sustaining me, filling me with energy, abundantly caring for my every need and thought.

That is what God's peace feels like. I was high, but not on drugs, on Him. I didn't want to move on with my day. I just wanted to sit in my warn out chair where I often give myself a moment to enjoy a good conversation and hot cup of coffee with Him.

Have you ever experienced God's peace?  What does your time with God look like?